So today I talked to a friend, she was talking about love. And i thought of you. and those memories rushed back. And the fucking shitty part is it doesn’t matter how long the time has passed a part of me still love you. You still are the person that I loved more than anything on this world. I gave you my world and you crushed me apart. I moved on but fuck, sometimes you still haunt me in my dreams and when I wake up I still feel suffocating.
Distance sucks. When I see those that I deeply care about feeling down and there is nothing I can do about it, not even giving them a hug. All I can do is just silently be there for them, even when they don’t want to tell me anything and choose to tell others. And It hurts at some point but then again I know I still love them and will always be here. That’s me. I’m stupid and stubborn like that. I will be home soon though, I promise. Just give me a few more days.
My mood swing still drives me insane. Blame finals next week. Those nightmares are back again. I’m exhausted from the lack of sleep. I’m still happy though, wait, the right word is content. So I guess everything is fine. Hopefully things get better as Christmas comes. It’s Christmas, after all.
do you have those memories that are really cringey and you never speak of and something triggers the memory and you want to fucking wash your brain out with bleach
2PM’s Korean albums »> 2009, 2011, 2013.
and just like that, another day had passed without any study
Ký ức trở mình hàng đêm
Đặt vào tay em những cơn ác mộng
Em không biết có phải nỗi buồn mình quá rộng
Nên em khóc cả trong mơ
Tháng năm tàn phai, kỉ niệm giờ đã xác xơ
(Hay ít nhiều cũng chẳng còn nguyên vẹn)
Tuổi trẻ lấm lem
Dại khờ nông nổi
Em vẫn ôm như báu vật đời mình
Thức giấc dưới ánh bình minh
Ngoảnh mặt lại nhìn những ngày u tối
Có phải em lạc lối
Hay chỉ là lựa chọn đúng – sai
Thèm được ngả đầu lên một bờ vai
Rồi nức nở những điều chưa bao giờ muốn nói
Cơn ác mộng đêm qua vẫn làm em đau nhói
Nhưng đã hết buồn, có gì mãi mãi đâu…
- Những đêm ác mộng | Minh Hiền.
i’m such an asshole but i’m also a v kind-hearted person who likes making ppl happy and if i love u i will love u with all my heart and all my soul but then i’m also such an asshole
You remember too much,
my mother said to me recently.
Why hold onto all that?
And I said,
Where do I put it down?
“Everyone, Merry Christmas! I’ll be by your side!!”